Comments on: Social Anxiety Disorder Experiences #2

By: ConsciousCloud

ConsciousCloud — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 02:47:17 +0000

That sucks so much. I can relate all too well to situations like that. So much so, that I’ve kind of lost faith in people and their promises. People tend to say they’ll do this or that, but never keep their word either because they’re just so busy or either you’re just not important enough to them. Whenever I sent old friends messages like that on myspace or something and they didn’t reply back, I wouldn’t bother them again. I now have alot of trust issues because of being let down alot in life.

By: geargail

geargail — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 02:24:48 +0000

I know someone with the last name Maddox, and he had trouble letting go of things… He died during Easter last year, and he was my next door apartment neighboor.

Do you know how it feels, to listen to you talk like this… and then you turn 44 years old, and your still talking about this stuff.

Then you get so scared or frightened of what people will think… you start putting that SCARE INTO PEOPLE.

I went to sunday church services after that.

Because of this crap.

By: NeroMaddox

NeroMaddox — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 01:53:16 +0000

You’re right, it really did suck. I was really excited when she wrote me the first time asking me if I was the same person she grew up with and added me. I had really looked forward to haning out.

But same here though. I’ve been disappointed more times than I care to think by other people. I wish this was the only video I could do about this sort of thing, but it won’t be the last.

By: geargail

geargail — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 01:41:21 +0000

Granted, that the best thing – is to keep digging into what’s really eating you, and as Linkin Park says “Bleed it out”…

You’ve got weeds to pull out of your garden, and they’re quite deep.

By: NeroMaddox

NeroMaddox — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 00:54:58 +0000

Yep, bleeding it out, so to speak, is one reason I decided to do videos like this. I’ve found for a long time now that doing these types of videos seem to help. Get things off my chest and all that.

By: ShyShan21

ShyShan21 — Sun, 25 Jul 2010 23:58:18 +0000

dont worry man lot of fish in the sea.. just got to recover from SA, thx for sharing the experience

By: karosakiichigo

karosakiichigo — Sun, 25 Jul 2010 23:28:31 +0000

i get upset when people break promises like that. To get you ready and u keeping it free and then them breaking it is just not cool. u have to let them know that your pissed off and if u dont want to hang out then at least tell me before hand. I know its hard doing that with social anxiety but stuff like this u have to make a stand

By: NeroMaddox

NeroMaddox — Sun, 25 Jul 2010 22:46:19 +0000

You’re welcomed. You’re right though, there are a lot of other fish in the sea. Hopefully a few of them will swim my way.

By: Chubzdoomer

Chubzdoomer — Sun, 25 Jul 2010 22:17:28 +0000

Maddox, at least you tried. That’s something that even I have a hard time doing. If I saw someone like that I knew long ago and hadn’t spoke to in a long time, there’s no way I’d ask to meet up with them – I’d be way too shy/anxious. It’s not your fault she isn’t true to her word, like most people these days. You did nothing wrong and should not regret having tried to make another friend.

By: NeroMaddox

NeroMaddox — Sun, 25 Jul 2010 21:38:57 +0000

So do I. I can understand if something comes up where it has to be broken, but to repeatedly do that, time after time after time I’m not okay with it.